Chapter 365 A Better Tomorrow (2/3)

Chapter 365 A Better Tomorrow (23)

When he got home, Aokiji didn't do anything. He took the medicine bottle that Busujima Saeko brought for him, applied it to the sore spots on his body, and then lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

He was thinking about Busujima Saeko.

Although he was willing to accept everything about Busujima Saeko, there was no doubt that what Busujima Saeko exposed to him today really made him a little overwhelmed and tired of dealing with it.

First of all, the first thing that Aokiji thinks about is Busujima Saeko's most pressing problem at the moment - the so-called bloodthirsty impulse.

This is really a thorny issue that even Aoki Tsukasa would never have thought of.

He had never thought that the gentle, generous, and considerate Busujima Saeko would be someone who would pick up a wooden sword and commit violence in the middle of the night.

Although those people deserved to be beaten, Aokiji felt a headache when he thought of Busujima Saeko's confession about the satisfaction and pleasure he would feel when hurting others.

This is indeed a very serious problem. If it cannot be solved, what should we do if one day Seiko couldn't help but pick up the knife and hit someone, and he hit someone hard, killing someone?

Why is she like this? How to help her?

Aokiji began to browse through various psychological information. Fortunately, he had accumulated experience in searching information about medical skills online, and he was quite familiar with checking the information.

According to Busujima Saeko, she usually doesn't have such thoughts or impulses, but it always appears whenever she feels down.

Aokiji believes that there must be a reason for this.

What triggered her impulsive desire?

Is it just that you are in a bad mood and want to vent your anger?

wrong.

Aokiji flipped through the information and gradually fell into deep thought.

What is the satisfaction she feels?

That feeling of pleasure was due to what she felt during the violence?

Looking at the information, Aokiji gradually narrowed his eyes.

The information on the mobile phone shows: According to surveys, a person's childhood experience is very likely to be the core cause of mental problems in adulthood.

"I want to win." Saeko Busujima's voice sounded like lightning in his ears again.

Aoki Si suddenly sat up straight, ignoring the pain in his muscles. He clapped his hands with an excited expression: "That's right!"

"it is this!"

He murmured to himself: "The information also said that this situation is quite complicated, but it is often due to some inducement that triggers a series of problems."

"Saeko would only have such impulses when she is at her lowest."

"And what's causing her depression?"

Aokiji thought about it carefully, and Saeko Busushima confessed that the first time he took action after leaving junior high school was when he kept a distance from her because of his lack of self-confidence.

What did she feel?

"self-abasement?"

Aokiji was a little unsure about this idea. He rested his chin and thought carefully: The reason why Saeko never dared to tell him her problem and kept putting it off was because of her low self-esteem.

She is afraid that because she has such a problem, she will be disgusted by others, especially the people she likes.

And when Aokiji kept his distance from her, what was the deepest thing she could feel? Is it frustration? Is it anger?

No, maybe it’s just inferiority complex?

He tried to analyze more reasons, so he began to think about every word that Saeko said to him.

family?

"Yes, the family is what makes her most desperate." Aokiji felt that he was getting closer to the truth of the matter.

"She is jealous of his younger brother. Especially after being defeated by Busujima Toshio today, she is on the verge of emotional collapse."

"If I hadn't confessed my love to Saeko and accepted her past at the same time, maybe she would be walking in the alley again today with a wooden sword looking for her target, right?"

"What's the reason? Is it because you lost?"

Aokiji muttered to himself and gave his answer: "No, it's another kind of inferiority complex."

Aokiji tried to bring himself into Busujima Saeko himself to think about the problem: "If I were Busujima Saeko, at the beginning, my father placed his hope on Busujima style swordsmanship in himself, and practiced kendo desperately every day, just for Let dad have some fun."

"At first, everything went well. She was extremely powerful and talented. Maybe during that period of time, Saeko was highly expected by her father. She was stronger than all her peers and had to work hard. Even though she worked hard at that time, But it must also be very happy.”

"And when her brother showed up, everything changed."

Aokiji sat down at the desk and sketched out the key words one by one.

"With the death of Saeko's mother, the appearance of her brother deprived her of the little love she had. And all this became more serious after his brother showed his talent in swordsmanship."

"My father began to give all his expectations to his younger brother, and Saeko was horrified to find that no matter how hard he tried, he would still be surpassed by Busujima Toshio."

What was she feeling at this moment?

Aokiji closed his eyes, and in his mind, he seemed to picture a purple-haired little girl squatting in the corner holding a wooden knife, crying silently but never being comforted by anyone.

At first it was anger.

to jealousy.

To despair.

Finally, it is inferiority complex.

"The reason why Saeko came to Japan is to escape that kind of life." Aokiji turned the gel pen in his hand, his eyes solemn: "The feeling that you may be surpassed by your younger brother at any time, the feeling that no matter how hard you try, you will always be the best." A reality that is destined to be ineffective.”

"At home, what Saeko feels the most is neglect. And in this process, she has almost lost herself."

"In the eyes of outsiders, she is a perfect woman with outstanding swordsmanship, gentleness and humility."

"But for Saeko, she is just a loser who is ignored by her family and is nothing more than a foil no matter how hard she tries."

"So what does she long for most?"

Aokiji wrote the word desire on the scratch paper.

Busujima Saeko said these three words not long ago, ‘I want to win’, and they kept repeating themselves.

Then, I wrote down possible answers: Agree? A sense of accomplishment? prove?

Finally, Aokiji circled everything.

"For Saeko, being able to defeat her younger brother proves that she is not a failure in her father's eyes."

"Perhaps deep down in her heart, she is still looking forward to regaining her father's approval after defeating her younger brother."

"So what will her bloodthirsty impulse satisfy?"

Aokiji closed his eyes again and replaced himself as Busujima Saeko. When he imagined that he was stepping in a pool of blood and watching others wailing and screaming on the ground, he suddenly opened his eyes with a cold sweat on his head.

".Guessed it right."

Aokiji put down the gel pen in his hand.

By hurting others, you gain inner satisfaction—making yourself feel a sense of existence, strength, and accomplishment.

Maybe it was that moment in junior high school, the moment Busujima Saeko destroyed others with her sword for the first time, that she felt all the feelings she desperately longed for.

The lack of sense of existence due to being ignored by family members, and the lack of sense of accomplishment due to inferiority complex due to being surpassed by younger brothers.

Aokiji tore up the draft paper and threw it into the trash can. He threw the gel pen into the pen holder and looked out the window with a slight frown.

He has a direction.

The trouble should end it.

Who is the culprit who made Busujima Saeko suffer so much and feel like an empty shell? The answer is already revealed - her family.

Busujima Saeko lacks a sense of identity and the care she needs. Tsukasa Aoki will work hard to fill the vacancy in her heart.

As for the scars given to her by others, the dark clouds that suppressed her breathlessness, and the mountain that kept her from straightening up in her heart, Aokiji and Busujima Saeko would hold their wooden swords side by side and chop them apart together!

If Saeko could face the difficulty head-on and break it with her own hands, maybe she would never need to feel what she was missing from anywhere else.

The problems called 'violent impulse' and 'blood lust' will naturally disappear as her heart is no longer empty.

She needs to find herself.

prove yourself.

The rest is left to Aokiji.

Aokiji took a deep breath and clenched his fists hard. The new pressure on his shoulders made him not feel tired, but instead felt full of motivation again.

Happiness is never easy to obtain.

He gave up in his last life.

In this life, he has to hold it tightly in his hands even if he fights for his life.

"You confessed everything to me and I accepted it all."

"You trust me, and I will never betray this trust."

Aokiji made the vow alone.

Because, from today on, Busujima Saeko accepted his affection and confessed it without reservation, the happiness of the two of them was no longer separate from each other.

Suddenly, Aokiji closed the curtains.

"Work hard today and try to learn all the skills in the special medical training room before the New Year! Then, while starting to treat Qiong's body, prepare for the boxing match during the day, and study kendo in the dream training room at night! Also! I have the whole next semester to work hard with Saeko, and I will definitely give Busujima Toshio a good beating when the summer vacation comes!"

"If it's not enough for Saeko to regain her confidence, then go to the United States and give her father a good beating!"

Aokiji set his goal again and closed his eyes with satisfaction.

Tomorrow is a better tomorrow, Aokiji firmly believes in this.

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