Chapter 557: Brand New China

who I am?

Hua has asked himself this question many times.

Is she an ordinary girl in a small town, but because she has been studying boxing for many years, she seems to be out of tune with her friends around her?

A student who left his hometown when he was less than twelve years old and came to Canghai City, thousands of miles away from home, to study alone, and happened to meet a student who was almost forced to die when the Honkai outbreak broke out?

Or a Fire Chaser soldier who could only watch his first friend of the same age turn into a Herrscher and die tragically in front of him, and he could only hold her severed hand and could do nothing. ?

Compared with her companions, she has always been an ordinary one. She finally made it to the turning point of fate. Not long after, what awaited her was a dream that lasted for fifty thousand years, and a journey that lasted for five thousand years. Years of loneliness.

She has played many roles in these five thousand years.

Sometimes he is the Red Kite Immortal who saves the common people, and sometimes he is a cruel executioner, hunting down human beings in the vast land of China like emotionless machines. Some people's self-awareness has not completely dissipated, and Or maybe that kind of self-awareness is just the same anthropomorphic deception method as the Herrscher. In short, she did not hesitate when doing it.

So, who is Hua?

Memory is a very precious thing, perhaps the most precious thing in a person besides life.

Life is the most important and possibly the only form of its own existence, and memory is the key to prove that this existence is real.

But there are always some things that are special, such as Hua. For her, memory is like a curse, like a shackle. Every time after reading through it, she will almost ask that question in confusion and numbness——

who I am.

Am I really "Hua"?

Perhaps the real Hua had already died when he first used Yu Duchen's first rated power.

There is no such thing as burning memory. The dead person is the real Hua. The subsequent consciousness is nothing more than the product of the physical self, and then pursues the previous memory, deliberately imitating the original Hua - when another self comes to her. When she pointed out that her current personality was much different from before, she thought of this possibility... It was hard to say that there was no such possibility.

If this is the case, it is not entirely a bad thing that his reborn consciousness has a completely different personality than the previous ones.

Why must we imitate the original Hua?

It is human instinct to imitate behavior, but aren’t the objects of imitation always stronger? Although humans also imitate some animals and plants, those animals and plants are indeed unique in certain fields, and they can be considered strong in a certain sense!

Then what is the purpose of imitating the original Hua? What is there about her that is worth imitating?

Right?

Right?

Right...right?

But she still wants to be Hua.

Not to imitate, but to become. Regardless of whether the previous assumption was correct or not, she wanted to become Hua. This was an emotional impulse that she did not understand.

Or maybe it's not all that complicated.

When a being possesses all the memories of another being, no, it is the only one, then who else can she choose to be?

Yes, whether she is Hua herself or another consciousness spawned by Hua's body, she just wants to be Hua, and she can only become Hua.

Therefore, she was certainly not unaware of her former self's doubts and the distrust of her apprentices and grandsons. She could even see that even the brainless little Pado noticed something was wrong with her, but she didn't do anything. explain.

She felt it was unnecessary to defend such things, very unnecessary. She doesn't like to talk, she just wants to prove everything with actions.

Well, a person's existence is divided into three parts-

Past, present and future.

Needless to say, the past and present are natural, but what about the future?

As long as she follows her goal in her memory and completely eliminates Honkai, then who can dare to say that she is not Hua?

But all, all, all, all of the above!

Everything was ruined by this self who was surviving on the remaining feathers of Yu Duchen.

Just one sentence:

"Perhaps I should call you by your scientific name more appropriately, right? Herrscher of Knowledge."

What even she didn't expect was that when she heard this sentence, the first emotion that came out of her heart was panic, then shock, and finally anger:

"There's something wrong with you... No, there's something wrong with all of you!"

What and what, this guy! Is she a Herrscher? How could she be the Herrscher? How could any Herrscher think about overthrowing Honkai when he was born?

She was so angry that she rolled on her hands and knees, as if she was about to get up from the couch and fight with her other self.

But there was no light in the room, and there was only the hazy moonlight filtered by the window paper. Without paying attention, she reached her hand into the empty space and fell face down from the collapse.

The other Hua was still sitting on the edge of the bed, watching all this quietly without making any unnecessary movements.

"Are you kidding me... I am the one who wants to defeat Honkai, and you call me a Herrscher? You actually call me a Herrscher? Are you stupid or am I stupid?"

Hua shook her head and stood up quietly, but before she showed any intention to leave, the Herrscher of Knowledge grabbed her ankle hard.

"As you can see, I am now just an illusion without any pain. I am indeed dead. I have reviewed my memories before my death countless times and I don't think there is any problem. And there are some memories we share, such as the side effects of Yu Duchen on the brain. Of course, you don't have subsequent memories, but you should be able to guess that I used Yu Duchen for the last time. After all, Yu Duchen is completely destroyed..."

"Excuses, all excuses!"

The Herrscher of Knowledge got up from the ground in a panic.

Compared to Hua's calmness, her demeanor can be called exasperated. Fortunately, the night is dark enough, and there is no third person in this room... Of course, at this point, no one will have the spare time to care about their image.

"I knew it! I knew it! You are actually jealous of me, right? We are all Hua, but you are jealous that I can continue to live with this identity, while you can only become the past! Right! It must be like this! Is it necessary? We are obviously the same person, and I helped you, otherwise you would be absorbed by me like your other companions... How dare you... What right do you have to slander me as a Herrscher?"

Slander. Yes, slander, this must be naked slander!

How could I, who is determined to overthrow Honkai, be a Herrscher?

The shouting was extremely harsh in the night when there was nothing, and Su Chang's voice soon came from outside the door.

"Master, what happened? I seem to hear you shouting something!"

"Who wants to..."

"It's okay, Su Chang... I remembered some things in the past. It's so late, you should go to bed early."

For a moment, the Herrscher of Knowledge was even ready to take action, but Hua, who had been so cold and ruthless in "slandering" her the moment before, suddenly spoke for her and put Su Chang back.

"Oh oh... Master, you... Oh, forget it, then I'm leaving, Master, take it easy!"

There was a heat in his heart, but he couldn't find a way to vent it anyway. Even if he yelled like before, it wouldn't have any effect. In the end, all the Herrscher of Knowledge could do was clench his fists and hit the bed hard, but the force was mutual. Although it didn't hurt much, the bed didn't feel anything, and in the end, he was the only one who got hurt.

"What are you thinking, you guy? Why... why do you want to..."

Why say that? Why say such cruel words?

It's like telling a child who has always wanted to be a righteous friend that his father is the biggest villain in the world.

Such words are not only cruel, but also extremely absurd, so absurd that it makes people sick. Even if it's just a joke, it's undoubtedly a bad joke that makes people want to beat the joker to the point where he can't get out of bed.

It's not that she can't accept that she is not the original Hua. She doesn't like the original Hua, no matter which one or which era. She just wants to be Hua, and she wants to be Hua, absolutely must be Hua, because...

Besides being Hua, where else can she choose...

Besides, she thinks that if it were her, she could do better than Hua, right? Looking back at the past memories from her current perspective, if she were to do it, she could make better decisions in many cases, right?

She is even willing to make some "concessions".

For example... hasn't she also imagined that possibility, imagined that she was just a consciousness born out of the flesh due to the emptiness of the soul, she can accept this setting, although it is already a big concession...but the Herrscher? Are you kidding me?

If she is really a Herrscher, then her goal of becoming Hua is a joke from the beginning.

She cannot become Hua who saves the world and drives away the collapse. On the contrary, she will become Hua, her companion, and the target of everyone's crusade...

If this is the case, how can she accept it?

But if so, why did Hua...

Why did she deliberately send Su Shang away?

If she is determined to be a Herrscher, why not call Su Shang to take action?

The Herrscher of Knowledge suddenly found that even if she had all the memories of that woman, she seemed unable to fully understand the logic of her behavior.

Was she afraid that the battle would affect the disciples on Taixu Mountain and the residents on the mountainside? Would this guy who once advocated "demons must be killed" care about this?

Or was the so-called Herrscher thing just a joke and excuse from Hua?

"Sure enough, you are deceiving me! Humph! You just don't want to die! Don't worry, I have said it before, it doesn't take much energy for me to maintain your body, you can keep this state until the day you want to unload the heavy responsibility and give me the part of memory you keep. But... if you really want to continue living, it's not impossible! I can make concessions, we can use this body and the name Hua together, how about it?"

Hua did not answer in a hurry, but let the heavy breathing sound continue to fill the room where she had spent countless nights.

"Hey! You guys, don't be shameless! Is it okay or not? Is it okay or not! You can tell me the truth!"

"You still don't understand, or you don't want to understand, so you are just deceiving yourself."

Hua Dabao shook her head in disbelief. This action was captured by the passing moonlight, and then she could be seen silently walking to the small table in the room and sitting down, leaving only the sound of "Sasha" footsteps.

"The reason why I call you the Herrscher is not for any random reasons, let alone boring emotions such as jealousy. There is only one reason, you are the Herrscher."

"Hey, hey, hey! If you talk like that again, I'm going to beat you up!"

"You have actually noticed it yourself. Along the way, you have been using your mental abilities consciously or unconsciously. Even the ability to quickly defeat Hollander was the same kind of power you relied on. But Mikael also seems to be asking Let's go through a similar question - Yu Duchen is obviously broken, so where does your power come from? "

Hua ignored the threat from the Herrscher of Knowledge, and just finished all this in a statement. There was a hint of exhaustion in his tone, and it was more like the taste of tea that has been boiled and then cooled in winter, with a thick taste. , but they all pile up together and are difficult to spread in the mouth.

"What do you mean by this? Have you forgotten? We are different from those Valkyries made by Otto! Even without the corresponding weapons, Valkyrie armor and artificial stigmata, we still have the ability to fuse the warriors themselves..."

"...But Garuda does not have mental abilities. I shouldn't need to repeat this."

"Then... maybe it's because Garuda was killed before he could show this kind of power... and... maybe it's because this body has been using Yuduchen for many years, so the body has developed adaptability. What about evolution? You can't prove that what I said is impossible. Right? Am I going to be labeled as the Herrscher of Knowledge just because I have spiritual powers? How could it make sense for you to say that before Aponia was put on the operating table? He has the ability to see destiny, so is Aponia a Herrscher?”

The Herrscher of Knowledge kept protesting, and she threw out every piece of evidence that was enough to support the possibility that "she is not the Herrscher". But no matter what she said or did, even if it really made Hua Ye shaken at all, she couldn't ignore her gradually collapsing heart.

To prove one hypothesis, she must shape more hypotheses. It's like making up a bunch of lies just for one lie.

The truth is always the simplest and most direct one.

"Herrscher of Consciousness, in fact, you don't need to be so resistant. We don't have to fight between us. As long as you are willing to accept reality, even as a Herrscher, it is not impossible to walk on the road against Honkai. Of course, I have to confirm something first, and then, but until you are completely stable, I will..."

"It's so noisy! What are you talking about?"

"Um?"

Hua only had time to let out a soft hum before a pink feather emitting a faint white light appeared in the palm of the Herrscher of Knowledge.

"Shut up first."

Whether it's Lawyer or Hua, it's hard for her to explain clearly what she is.

But think about it carefully, once you accept the setting of being a Herrscher, you don't seem to be as angry as you showed before?

After all, becoming a Herrscher means having power, the power to change many things.

However, if she was happy, she didn't seem very happy.

No, there is nothing to be happy about at all.

My heart was in a mess, and my body temperature was switching rapidly between extreme heat and extreme cold, which was devastating.

"Forget it! With my intelligence, isn't it easy to become a human being? As long as everyone thinks I am 'Hua', then I will be Hua, and I will also be Hua when the King of Heaven comes! Although there is still a feeling like a lump in the throat... ...but you should get used to it, my friend...

"As a warrior of the Fire Chasing Moth, you can't save anything. You can only watch the humanity you swore to protect and the civilization you swore to protect being destroyed.

"As the Scarlet Kite Immortal passed down from generation to generation in China, you have nothing to do with the vastness of supernatural powers. You have indeed saved countless people, but in order to save these people, you must ruthlessly kill more people. Obviously those who were killed of people who not long ago viewed you as their savior.

"As a master, although I don't remember what happened five hundred years ago, I can tell that the relationship between you and those apprentices is not good.

"As for now...what can we say about the past ten years?

"No matter what era, you are a waste that has accomplished nothing. But who asked me to appear in your body like this? I am still a very responsible person. Just open your eyes and watch the birth of the new Hua. !”