Chapter 358 What Mikael Wants to Do

"I understand... Alicia, thank you."

Mikael broke away from Ally's arms. His tears dried up in an instant. He rubbed the muscles of his face with both hands and returned to his original cold look.

Looking at his expressionless side face, Ai Li pursed her lips and suddenly reached out her hand to poke him gently on the cheek.

"..."

The corners of Mikael's mouth twitched slightly, while Ellie covered her mouth and laughed.

"I know what you're thinking."

After laughing, Ellie put her arm around Mikael's shoulders and said softly:

"When I poked you in the face just now, did you think for a moment that I was her?"

"……Um."

Mikael's Adam's apple continued to squirm, and he finally gave a positive answer.

"well……"

Ellie sighed softly and poked Mikael on the cheek several times:

"You, you look like an adult, and you are 50,000 years old, but sometimes you are as childish as a child. You see, the question of whether I am her or not, you have been asking since 50,000 years ago I'm still confused, and I still can't get a result, but is the answer to this question really important to other people? Well, maybe Hua will think about this question like you, but she will think about it better than you? Be more decisive.”

"Then... Alicia, for yourself, do you think you are her or not her?"

Mikael leaned forward, staring blankly at his toes.

His rhetorical question was once again laughed at by Ellie, who kicked the ball back to Mikael:

"So what if I am her, so what if I'm not her?"

"..."

Mikael took a deep breath suddenly, and a gloomy look flashed between his eyebrows:

"Alicia, you said... If I firmly believe that you are her and you are still alive in this way... then everything I have done in the past 50,000 years and the reason for my reincarnation in the world is completely It's unnecessary, isn't it? In that case, I don't have to continue walking. Although I can't make Honkai disappear directly, I can control Honkai until the day when human beings can completely master the power of Honkai. If it is a different ending, will it be better? Would it be more in line with her expectations?"

"Yes, yes, you are right."

Ai Li rarely used a perfunctory tone, followed by another long sigh:

"Oh...Mikael...don't you understand? There is no point in worrying about these. Since you have chosen the current path, haven't you already handed over your answer? Of course, if you regret it now, It's still too late, but you are not like that. Mikael, you are so awkward and easy. It is easy to get entangled in a problem and hesitate for a long time, but once you make a choice, you will be stubborn to the extreme. In my opinion, what about the sins you have done, what you have thought, and the sins you have confessed? If you use the ultimate power to make up for the mistakes you make, why bother?"

"...Haha, you are right."

Mikael closed his eyes and smiled rarely:

"It's true... In fact, there is no need to worry about these issues at all... I just keep living in the past, always thinking that if I had made different decisions in the past, the results now would be completely different. …But the past cannot be changed. This kind of thinking may not be wrong, but it must be futile and meaningless. Nothing will happen except to move yourself.”

"Hehe! It seems you are not hopelessly stupid!"

Ellie patted Mikael's head gently, as if she was comforting a child.

"Ellie...I am an adult..."

How could Mikael not feel her attitude? I couldn't laugh or cry for a while.

"Maybe, but I think your thinking is still at the naive level of a child."

"First of all, this is a personal attack!"

Mikael took the hand that Ellie stretched out to rub his head.

"Secondly, whether you are naive or not is a definition given by humans. No one has ever set a quantitative standard for what is naive, and no one has ever said that adults must not be naive."

Ellie tried to pull her hand away with a little force, but Mikael's hands held tightly and wouldn't let go. She quickly gave up and allowed Mikael to place her hands across her knees.

She knew that Mikael was not so fragile outside. Even in that era when it seemed extremely immature now, he was definitely not that fragile in front of others.

How can people not be fragile? If there is no vulnerability, strength will no longer be meaningful. If there is no childishness, maturity will no longer be meaningful.

People cannot erase their own fragility and naivety, they can only choose who to show the bad side of these universal values.

It is obvious that no one would be stupid enough to show such a bad side of himself to an unimportant person...

People only shed tears in front of those closest to them, that's probably it.

She waved her other hand, a meaningful smile appeared on her face, but there was a sense of helplessness in her tone:

"Yes, you are right, but... in the eyes of a girl, her lover is also her child, just an older child!"

"Heh... yes."

He grasped Ellie's left hand with both hands, shook it hard, and then stood up with a bang.

"Okay, Alicia, as you said, let's stop here with the meaningless things."

"Are you going to... go?"

Aili's voice was a little low, and Mikael turned his head away to prevent her from seeing the reluctance in his eyes, but apart from his eyes, that emotion had already overflowed from every pore of his body, and any cover-up was just a cover-up.

"Reluctant?"

Ailicia thought about it and pointed it out directly.

Mikael hesitated for a moment, and finally nodded truthfully.

"Then... stay with me for a while? Didn't I say that? If you feel tired, if you don't want to move forward for the time being, you don't have to force yourself to move forward. Mikael, we always have enough time, even if you stay with me for a few more days, what's the matter?"

"Maybe..."

"Ah?"

Maybe, if Ali didn't say that, maybe Mikael really softened his heart for a while, and immersed himself in the false beauty of the paradise of the past, and who knows if he would stay there for several years.

But when she generously said, "You don't have to force yourself to do things you don't want to do right now," and "If you're tired, just rest by my side," Mikael was unwilling to stop there.

From this perspective, isn't the "consolation" that Ellie did a significant incentive?

Sometimes people's hearts are like this. Blind encouragement and chicken soup will only make people bored and lose the strength to move forward.

But if someone generously tells you at this time that you're tired, why do you have to force yourself to move forward? Just come here to rest, then the lazy mind will gradually fade, and finally you can grit your teeth and continue on the road.

And this is what Mikael is like at this time.

Although he was extremely reluctant to leave, and although he knew that Ellie's original intention of saying this was to let him rest here for a while, he also knew that if he left at this moment, Ellie would definitely feel a little disappointed...

But at this moment, he had to move forward, in order to live up to the past 50,000 years, in order to live up to all the mistakes he had made, and in order to live up to her love at this moment.

Ellie smiled bitterly. She was also reluctant to let Mikael leave, but she knew that she could not keep him. And as a memory, her efforts for him and for the world ended here.

However, after 50,000 years of waiting, she finally waited for a ten-minute period of time alone with Mikael. For a moment, she didn't know whether to feel bitter or happy.

"Then... where are you going next?"

Ellie stood up and covered Michael's mouth with her hand without waiting for his answer:

"Shh! Don't talk. Let me guess. Are you going to find dear Mebius?"

If it were fifty thousand years ago, Mikael would have pulled his mouth, cleared his throat, and spent half an hour explaining to Ellie the "necessity" of finding Mebius. Only when Ellie nodded with her mouth covered, would he start walking with a guilty conscience.

But things are different now. He is no longer the boy who can't even reach the other side of the river with a skipping stone...

As Alicia said, the mistakes made with the power of the end can be made up with the power of the end in the future. By the way, some mistakes that were not made because of the power of the end can also be corrected with the power of the end in the future.

Since they can be corrected in the future, the right and wrong at this moment are not that important.

Is that really the case...

As if she knew what Mikael was thinking, Ellie held her hand again when he was about to leave.

Mikael turned his head in surprise. He thought Ellie wanted to keep him, but unexpectedly, she didn't say anything, just bit her lower lip.

Her eyebrows were slightly wrinkled, and her eyelashes were trembling a little bit. Mikael knew the meaning of her eyes very well - pity.

She had something to say, but she didn't intend to say it.

Mikael also knew what she wanted to say. This was something that could be guessed without the power of knowledge, just based on the two people's understanding of each other:

"Mikael, in fact, all your pain is just due to... your own almost fragile kindness. If it were someone else, someone who would do anything, the mistakes of the past would be directly covered up with various powers, and the mistakes to be made in the future would be erased because the future is destined to be corrected, and there would be no psychological burden. Only you... You firmly do not think that the buried and erased mistakes do not exist, and therefore put too much pressure on yourself, always feeling that you are already an unforgivable sinner...

"But think about it carefully, how many people have you hurt? How many people have you saved? Of course, this algorithm of offsetting merits and demerits is probably unacceptable in your eyes, right? This is indeed a very, very naive and fragile idea, but... It doesn't matter, I don't hate it, I like you, I just like you who are so fragile. "

She held Mikael's hand with a little force, as if hoping that the force she exerted could be shared with Mikael, providing him with some insignificant help.

"Because this kind of fragility is the proof of the goodness of human hearts, and on the other hand, the future you would rather bear with such pain must be a very beautiful, perfect and worth looking forward to future. "

"Yes. "

Mikael held her hand back and answered firmly:

"No matter who it is, it is a perfect future. This wish is the only thing that has not changed in me for fifty thousand years. I promise you."

The two looked at each other and smiled, and Mikael's figure soon disappeared like a cloud of mist.

Alicia, Alicia in the Paradise of the Past was still standing where she was, with her left hand still holding it, and it was not until two or three minutes later that she slowly tightened it.

"What a pity!"

Clear laughter echoed in the empty hall. She took two steps back and sat back on the sofa softly and slowly.

"It's a pity, it's such a pity..."

She turned her head and stared blankly at the broken star gate, her voice was calm but sad:

"No matter what, as a memory...I cannot move towards that future."

"He's been here?"

After a while, a familiar voice sounded in her ears, and Alicia nodded silently.

Mei didn't say anything more, she just pushed her eyes lightly on the bridge of her nose, as if everything was expected.

…………

"That's pretty much it, Kevin."

In one breath, he laid out all the information he had received from last night to now. Su felt that his brain was lacking oxygen.

From time to time, two busy signals came from the other side of the communication line. Su waited for a long time but did not get a response from Kevin.

"Ahem, Kevin, are you still there?"

"Ding!...Wait a moment, and I'll talk to you later...Bang! Talk to you!"

"well……"

Su leaned back, and the bamboo lounge chair shook with a continuous "squeaking" sound.

He began to count silently in his mind, and it wasn't until the 200th second that Kevin's communication dialed back.

"It's me, Kevin, can you say it again?"

Su sighed, calmed down his emotions, and tried his best to repeat the previous situation in a concise and capable tone.

"So, it is now absolutely certain that Mikael is still alive. He even went to the Paradise of the Past five thousand years ago and left a message, predicting that you will see this message five thousand years later? You also made an appointment with us to have a fight in Klosten?"

"Things are getting more complicated..."

Su raised his hand and rubbed the center of his brow, which was visibly red and swollen. It was not difficult to imagine how many times he had repeated this action.

"I can't figure out what he is going to do..."

"No, actually you, actually we have always known what he wanted to do."

"ah?"

"We used to speculate on his purpose based on his actions. Since his actions were too unconstrained, we naturally couldn't deduce any results. But, Su, a person's character is his destiny. You put yourself in his shoes. Think about it from perspective, do you really not know what he wants to do?”

Su was silent for a while, then bitterly uttered four words:

"Alicia..."

But he quickly denied this statement:

"No, it is precisely because I understand his character that I know better. Of course he loves Alicia, but he is not the kind of person who can completely ignore the world for Alicia. Besides, if he is really like this If you do, this won’t be what Alicia wants, right?”

"Maybe, but do you have any other explanation?"

"No……"

"Then just think that everything he did was just to resurrect Alicia."

Su was speechless for a moment. He could feel the deep resentment in Kevin's words, but he couldn't say whether this resentment was directed at him or Mikael.

But all in all, he can probably understand Kevin's thoughts:

Mikael wants Alicia to live, but doesn’t Kevin want May to live? Mei's matter is also very complicated. From his and Kevin's perspective, there is no doubt that the cause of Mei's death was the Heavenly Fire Holy Judgment launched by Kevin. But if Mikael had not disagreed, it would have become the final reincarnation of the world. , how could all this happen?

Su even felt that Kevin was certainly not sure that all Mikael did was just to resurrect Alicia, but he hoped so, which would make him feel envious - and why didn't he want to search for it at all costs? Possibility of resurrecting Mei? But the weight he carries determines that he cannot just "despite everything".

"Then...what do you think about what he said about the battle in Klosten, Kevin?"

"If he wants to fight, then he will fight."

"No...Kevin, you..."

Su rubbed his red and swollen eyebrows again. He had already gotten out of the initial state of excitement, so he felt more and more that there was no chance of winning this battle.

Fifty thousand years ago, with the cooperation of Moonlight Throne and Hua, Kevin briefly entered the so-called [salvation] state, and then successfully struck a sword that seriously injured Mikael.

But now that the Moonlight Throne has long been burned down, Hua's attitude is unknown, and he may even be leaning towards Mikael. Kevin's body has been irreversibly traumatized by that overweight super-transformation, so that he can no longer enter the state he was in at that time, and currently humans His own fighting power is still too weak. In this case, what are the chances of winning against Mikael?

"I know what you are thinking, Su, but why do you think Mikael would set the time for this battle now? Now that my condition has recovered a lot, why did he not take action in the past 50,000 years? ?”

"Well……"

"Perhaps he himself was severely injured in that battle 50,000 years ago and has only recovered now. At least he thinks he has recovered the strength to suppress you and me..."

"No, Kevin, there is no evidence to prove what you said..."

"...I know, but we have to fight. Do you think there is a possibility of hiding?"

Su shook his head. He felt that Kevin was too impulsive now, but he said a lot. He had to fight even if he didn't want to. So what else can he do except selectively believe?

"What are you going to do?"

"Fighting is just a process of piling weights on a scale. He thinks that his weight combined exceeds you and me, so we will find another weight and catch him off guard."

"You plan to find..."

"I'm in Australia. I just defeated a girl with the Key of Domination. I should be able to see Hua soon."

"..."

Su didn't know how to answer for a while.

Even if Kevin can successfully pull Hua into his camp, then...

"Kevin, have you forgotten Mobius?"

Su asked this question, but didn't get a response for a long time. He realized that Kevin had hung up the communication long ago.

It seems that he intends to go his own way to the end.