Chapter 1359 So

After saying this, Han Dongchen sighed and continued with a sad face: "Later we found out that this woman went out to look for food because her daughter had been hungry for three days and had no choice but to be targeted. Later, That’s why this tragedy happened.”

When Su Xiaowan heard this, she was stunned. She really couldn't imagine such a thing. However, after listening to Han Dongchen's words, she felt suffocated in her heart.

Han Dongchen hugged Su Xiaowan a little tighter and said in a hoarse voice: "In that area, food is supreme. There are constant wars there, and the people are in dire straits. Even if they don't starve to death, they may be killed by bullets that don't have long eyes. "

"Everything there is shocking. In order to survive, anything is possible, and even cannibalism happens."

"War is cruel, and this place is something I will never forget until my death, because, because"

After Han Dongchen took a deep breath, he said in an extremely hoarse voice: "Because I am the only one who survived in the entire formation."

only myself

only myself

The only thing Su Xiaowan could think of was this sentence, "What do you mean I am the only one who survives?" How tragic is that?

Han Dongchen was the only one in the formation who survived. Thinking of this, Su Xiaowan swallowed her saliva and unconsciously hugged Han Dongchen's arm.

I hope this can give him some warmth. Su Xiaowan didn't know the tragic situation on the battlefield at that time, but she knew very well that for people like Han Dongchen and others, "comrade-in-arms" was not just a noun, it was an emotional fortress.

Seeing the death of his comrades one by one, the inner fortress was broken piece by piece. In such a harsh situation, alone and losing all his comrades, how broken was Han Dongchen's heart?

When Su Xiaowan closed her eyes, she could feel the broken walls around her, gunpowder smoke everywhere, corpses and blood everywhere, the enemy was still attacking, and Han Dongchen was facing a hail of bullets alone.

There is a risk of sacrifice at any time. Maybe, in addition to pain and anger at that time, you can also pick up a gun to fight back and avenge your brothers.

Su Xiaowan didn't know how Han Dongchen survived, but she knew that she might almost lose Han Dongchen. At this moment, Su Xiaowan's heart was pounding, since she felt lucky to have recovered something.

At the same time, I began to feel sorry for Han Dongchen. All his comrades had died, and he was the only one left. How broken was his heart at that time? The overwhelming feeling of guilt can completely break a person's will.

Let me ask, if a normal person is in danger, if he sees his friend die in front of him, but he can't do anything about it, or if he is in danger and faces death, the God of Death chooses his friend, but he doesn't. Able to survive in this world

Yes, this is very lucky, and my friend is very unfortunate, but no one can escape the feeling of self-blame and guilt deep in their hearts, as well as the fearful sense of deja vu. Don’t think it’s no big deal, really, it can Torture people to death.

After some people experience such a painful or terrible thing, they may be fine at the time, but soon afterwards they find that something is not normal.

Some speak in fragments, the words are messy and incoherent, and difficult to understand, while others have dull eyes, blank expressions, dull emotions, slow emotions, little speech and little movement, or even a state of stupor, responding to no one's call, and completely indifferent to external stimulation. No response, even selective amnesia, etc.

This is what psychology always says. The symptoms of traumatic stress disorder are difficult for ordinary people to avoid. They may be mild or severe, but they cannot be escaped. They all need treatment, and not everyone can be treated well.

That fear and guilt will always be with you, and it's hard to let go. Ordinary people may feel like this when they encounter someone, not to mention that Han Dongchen has to face the entire formation?

Yes, Han Dongchen's profession destined him to have a strong heart. He may be used to life and death, and to such tragic battlefields.

However, it was no one else who sacrificed, but the comrades who fought side by side with him day and night, the comrades who could trust each other and trust each other, but they died one by one and left forever.

Han Dongchen was strong. He was also a human being. People always have emotions and desires, and they were the closest people around him. Su Xiaowan didn't know how Han Dongchen survived at that time.

At this moment, she realized how powerful the man she loved deeply was and what a strong heart he had. No wonder he didn't want to say it. No wonder he

After Han Dongchen said those words, his whole person fell into a sad, dead, and gloomy mood. To be honest, he was not that strong.

He gritted his teeth, because he knew that in his life there were not only comrades-in-arms, but also his relatives, his little wife and children who were waiting for him to go back. He could not die. He looked at those who died. comrades, he couldn't die here with them.

His strong desire to survive made him wait until rescue arrived. He lay in bed for more than half a year, thinking about everything that happened in this war all the time.

He missed the cheerful smiles of his comrades, the jokes they made to each other, and introduced people to the photos, "This is my wife, this is my baby's Shandong man."

At that time, every day when he closed his eyes, a character would appear in his mind, and they would look at him blankly, either telling him to leave quickly, or covering his sacrifice, or maybe it was the desire to save him. The look of survival

But he could do nothing. That battle was too tragic. He couldn't save anyone, not even himself.

The feeling of helplessness and self-blame in his heart, like a fire, almost burned him. From that moment on, he hated war. Looking at the devastated city, how many families were broken, how many relatives and wives were separated, and how many people died?

He couldn't imagine what it would be like if such a battlefield happened in his country and happened to his closest people. So, he swore that he would never let such a war happen in his country, the people and relatives he protected in his lifetime.

I don't know how long it took, Han Dongchen withdrew his sight from the grayness, and found that Su Xiaowan was tightly against his waist, murmuring: "It's okay, it's okay, it's all over, it's over, don't think about it, everything will be fine, fine."

Han Dongchen looked at Su Xiaowan's trembling shoulders, warming his heart with his own temperature, and couldn't help but feel as if a warm current passed through his heart. Yes, it's all over, and it will be fine.

So, he hugged Su Xiaowan's small body tightly and buried his face in Su Xiaowan's neck. After a long while, he touched Su Xiaowan's hair and said, "Xiaowan, did I scare you just now? Don't be afraid, don't be afraid."