Chapter 236 The Meaning of Existence (1/3 Guaranteed)

Chapter 236 The meaning of existence (13 guaranteed)

"I don't hate my brother." Busushima Saeko looked at the floating clouds outside the window, her eyes somewhat blurred and she fell into deep thought.

"But, I'm jealous of him."

Busujima Saeko lowered his eyes slightly and sighed faintly: "Because he is a genius."

Aokiji just looked at her quietly, his eyes calm.

"Because of him, he deprived me of the meaning of my existence." Busujima Saeko lowered her head with a wry smile and murmured: "Since I was born, I have been dubbed the heir of the Busujima style swordsmanship. After being stripped of this identity, I , there’s nothing left.”

"You know, I used to wish that it would be great if he could disappear from this world." Busujima Saeko's words were a little cold. She raised her head and looked at Aoki Tsukasa with uneasy eyes, but she was still frank. Tell the truth.

"Because I really can't stand the feeling of being gradually surpassed by him." Busujima Saeko raised the corners of her lips and smiled self-deprecatingly: "I am very jealous of him, jealous of his father's appreciation, jealous of his mother's care, From the bottom of my heart, I hate the feeling that I am gradually being ignored.”

"As a sister, she is jealous of her younger brother. Tsukasa will definitely find people like me very annoying." Busujima Saeko did not dare to look at Aoki Tsukasa, for fear that there would be a look of disgust in his calm eyes.

She stared at the floor blankly, her eyes a little dazed: "Yes, you are right. I hate my brother."

Aokiji quietly watched her fall into silence. After a while, he said softly: "Saeko."

This was the first time that Aokiji did not add the word "senpai" after Saeko. This sudden intimate address made Busujima Saeko's body tremble slightly. She raised her head in surprise and saw Aokiji's gentle eyes.

"Why, the meaning of your existence is for the so-called 'kendo'." Aokiji pointed out the problem keenly.

"Why does Saeko live for other people's expectations?" Aokiji said calmly what her problem was: "What is Saeko jealous of?"

"Are you jealous of his kendo talent? But without kendo, doesn't the senior sister have no meaning in existence? Are you jealous of your parents' concern for him? If your parents only care about him because of his kendo talent, then this kind of care is really Is it what senior sister wants?"

Aokiji's words made Busujima Saeko's eyes turn slightly red, and she became a little excited. Her white fingers were clasped tightly, and the veins on the back of her hands were exposed.

"Being born into the Busujima family means things that Tsukasa will not understand." Her words were a bit cold: "Since I was born, the first thing I saw besides my parents was a wooden sword."

"Besides, if I don't have kendo, what else do I have?" Busujima Saeko gritted her teeth and trembled slightly.

If no one needs me, what is the meaning of my existence? Busushima Saeko closed her eyes in pain.

However, Aokiji suddenly stood up and stretched out his palm towards her: "Zezi, follow me."

Busujima Saeko opened her eyes and looked at his white palm placed in front of her eyes. Her lips trembled slightly: "Wha, what?"

Aokiji bent down, grabbed her wrist, pulled her up from the floor, and walked straight out of the kendo hall.

"Matsu, let go of me." Busujima Saeko felt that her mind went blank, and the calmness of the past disappeared under Aokiji's sudden action. The melancholy and pain just now were disrupted by the violent heartbeat, and she didn't even know what she was talking about. ,doing what.

Aokiji took her to the door and opened the door of the kendo hall.

Outside the door, the sun was shining brightly, and many students were chasing each other in the corridor leading to the playground from the kendo hall. The autumn leaves of the trees planted on the roadside were withered and yellow, falling in the wind, like a thin blanket spread on the road.

"Zezi, look." Aokiji let go of his hand and stood with her at the door of the kendo hall.

The autumn wind blew through Busujima Saeko's gi, and her trouser legs swayed slightly, exposing her white ankles. The coolness traveled up her ankles, making her body shiver unconsciously.

What to see? Busujima Saeko stared blankly at the all-too-familiar scene in front of him.

"Has Saeko really taken a good look at this world?" Aokiji looked into the distance, not knowing exactly what he was looking at. His tone was calm: "Have Saeko noticed the couple's names carved on the tree? ?”

"What are the laughing classmates over there talking about? Did Saeko listen carefully?"

"In addition to the few clouds that can be seen in the kendo hall, there are thousands of miles of clear sky in the sky." Aokiji turned his head and looked at Busujima Saeko: "Saeko, don't be constrained by the narrow kendo. Your life is not for kendo. For other people’s approval, not for your father’s approval.”

"It's for your own sake."

Busujima Saeko's eyes swayed violently. When he looked at Aoki Tsukasa, his handsome and strong cheeks had particularly clear lines in the sun. The fierce aura in the past disappeared at this time, leaving only gentleness and tranquility.

His big eyes reflected only Busujima Saeko's blank face.

"Si Mingming doesn't know anything." Busujima Saeko's voice trembled weakly.

"Indeed, I don't know what kind of suffering the senior sister has suffered, and I don't know how lonely and sad the senior sister was before."

Aokiji smiled lightly: "But isn't that already a thing of the past?"

"Si clearly doesn't understand anything." Busujima Saeko trembled a little more obviously and buried her head deeply. Her gorgeous purple hair shone like a gem, hiding her expression.

"Yes, I really don't understand how senior sister feels." Aokiji just looked at her.

"But am I not alone in this world with no relatives?" Aokiji recounted the facts: "But I am not alone. Because there are many people around me who are worthy of being loved and worthy of reward."

"They didn't appear in my life on their own initiative." Aokiji smiled: "They just worked hard to find them."

"Senior just imprisoned herself in a small kendo gym and didn't want to come out." Aokiji said firmly: "As long as I think about it, as long as I am willing to come out, my life will definitely become completely different." of."

"Si Mingming doesn't understand me at all." Busujima Saeko raised her voice, and her voice at this time could even be described as a roar. She raised her head, her eyes red.

Aokiji just smiled softly: "Indeed, I don't understand senior yet."

"But, Saeko, if you need someone who understands you, I hope that person is me."

These words that were almost a confession made Busujima Saeko freeze in place.

The breeze was blowing her purple hair. Busujima Saeko didn't know whether it was the tears or the ends of her hair that disturbed her vision. Everything in front of her eyes became blurred, except for Aokiji's bright eyes that became clearer.

"If senior sister can't find the meaning of her existence, then let us find it together." Aokiji smiled, his cheeks slightly red: "Anyway, I always feel that it is great that Saeko exists in this world. "

this world

There is my existence.

That's great?

Busujima Saeko bit her lower lip tightly and buried her head deeply.

"My company."

"Let's stop talking today. I want to be alone."

"please."

When Aokiji walked out of the kendo hall with a confused look on his face, and the door behind him was tightly closed, Busujima Saeko weakly leaned on the door and slowly knelt on the ground, covered her face and finally cried out in pain.

"Thanks."

Her soft cries were covered up by her cries, and outside the thick door, only the gentle sobbing could be heard from Aokiji, who looked up at the sky and sighed faintly.

"This is what I am"

"The confession failed?"

Aokiji smiled wryly and put his hands in his pockets, watching quietly as the clouds slid from above his head to behind him, being obscured by the eaves of the kendo hall, before he slowly took a step forward.

After walking a few steps, the phone suddenly rang.

After answering the call, Busujima Saeko's hoarse voice from crying was particularly clear: "Thank you."

Before he could respond, the caller hung up, and Aokiji still looked confused.

Did Saeko-senpai accept it or reject it?

A girl's heart. Aokiji shook his head, but his expression did not show any loss.

He took out his mobile phone and edited a text message to Busujima Saeko. After sending it, Aokiji strode towards the class.

At this time in the kendo hall, Busujima Saeko buried her face deeply in her knees, and held the mobile phone tightly in her right hand.

On the screen of the mobile phone, the text message with Aokiji's name was written in a short sentence.

"After the boxing match, let's practice swordplay together."

After a long time, Busushima Saeko raised her head, wiped away her tears, tapped her fingers lightly, and replied with one word: "Yes."

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PS: I'm crying, I have a cold, I feel so uncomfortable. I wrote two updates and I just can't write anymore. I'll write the third update after I get some sleep. I'll probably upload the third update at noon or afternoon tomorrow.